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I promised to write this some time ago on twitter, i apologise its taken me some time to do so. But if you read on, maybe you will understand a little as to why its taken some time.

PTSD: From the eyes of a child pedophile survivor.

To live with post traumatic stress disorder is exhausting. The constant anxiety. The constant nagging fears. The black hole starts to consume the mind slowly, until one day there is nothing left but darkness. Sadness. Anxiety. Loneliness. Sorrow. Guilt. Fear. It feels mind numbingly insane to fall into the pits of darkness when your identities conflict. One part of me is confident, logical, loving, analytical, and often in too many ways, intrigued by the world around me. The other part of me hides in the dark corners, seeks comfort in being alone, hides away from the world and feels i am nothing, i am numb.

To understand how i became so conflicted, i have to go back. Childhood. The time when your life is supposed to be free from worries, stress, hurt, pain, anxiety, yet somehow, i must have done something wrong. i got worries, stress, hurt, pain and oh so much more. I didnt understand until i was almost an adult what had happened in those years i tried to so hard to repress. I feel so stupid. How was i so smart and logical and not understand what happened to me. Maybe because i tried to fight the memories and tried so hard to repress them that i didnt process it. I dont know, all i know is it left me with nothing but guilt, sadness, hate and a conflicting craziness in my mind i have never experienced before, how did i get so lost in the process of dealing and accepting? I am the survivor of a child pedophile. It took me many years to say those words out loud. The sadness that i feel when i say those words is beyond explanation. The guilt i have carried has left scars so deep, because i never stopped it. i never spoke up and said something and i was not the last of his victims. for so long i all i felt was guilty when i found out others had become just like me. reduced to my fate. A survivor. A child ripped apart mentally, physically numb and broken inside. An adult struggling to find the light in the crazy darkness. Trying to find a way to heal the scars that continue to cut so deep into me. The pain becomes physical. The gut wrenching nausea, the searing migranes, the aching heart. What we mentally suffer manifests to physical symptoms and starts to rule your life. I try and hide. Shut myself away from the world. Wishing i could wake up tomorrow and just be, well, somebody else. Not Me. Not  mentally lost in this confusing hell of memories and nightmares.

Many years of therapy have taught me many techniques to deal with the realities of what i suffer on a daily basis, but, its still never easy. I guess to truly understand why the suffering of PTSD is deeply impacting on me, its because of multiple trauma’s. From 8-11/12 yrs old, groomed, broken and abused by which my parents had no idea. At 13 i was sexually assaulted by someone connected with extended family. When i confided in a friend at school she told a teacher. The family drama’s followed. Then the name calling started, i was called a slut and whore by an other in the family who didnt want to believe me. That was until her little sisters came forward also. By now people realised i wasnt lying. But the mental damage was already done. My life started a slippery slope downwards from there on. I was expelled from high school in year 8. i started to drink, alot. I ran away from home. I dont think my parents fully realised until recently just how much i was suffering when i was a teen. They didnt know of the pedophile. Only knew of the assault. But that wasnt to be the end of it.  One of the times i ran away, i was raped. After the no’s, the shoving, the fighting to get his stinking beer face away from me, I can vividly remember thinking, how can you see my tears and still do this to me. I really am worth nothing.

Again, shame, guilt, all of it overcomes. How could this have happened to me, i am strong. at 14, i wasnt much of a challenge for a grown man, i realise that now, but back then, how could i. Was It was my fault, maybe they could see something in me that showed them i was nothing, that is why  it kept on happenening to me. because i wasnt worth any thing more.  Thats how i felt, and somedays in all honesty, i still feel that way. To accept what has been done is to fully deal with it, and i dont think i have ever been ready to full do so, but to keep on pushing it back, regressing and hiding, only makes the suffering worse. i know that now. But when the scars are so deep the pain so vividly real, how do you stop the floodgates when you open them. How do you ever go back to who you once were. Maybe, one day, at the end of my journey, ill have the answer. Until then, i truly hope for the day when time healed all wounds.

AA.

(NB: A further trauma that confounds PTSD on me, is being involved at 17yrs old (victim) in an armed robbery where i was working (thankfully i had been pushed to the ground by a supervisor moments before guns were fired, thankfully no one was shot).

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This year, Op Nov 5 was very small in comparison with 2011. It appears that being a Monday, only the dedicated were able to show their “Ideological” faces outside the NSW parliament house in Sydney.

The day started with my arrival at Occupy Sydney, a place at which my heart lies in spirit daily with those whom currently and have previously and will continue into the future to occupy. This movement has been a real “eye opener” in my personal life, on a journey that lead me to attend University.

Occupy Sydney – Martin Place

#OpVendetta & Anonymous Flyers attached to the occupy Sydney base

After checking out the new flyers hanging on the Occupy Sydney base i decided to hang a few #OpNov5 ones also.

Soon after, some fellow anons arrived and after some greetings and chatting we decided to head up to NSW Parliament House.

Whilst the group was small, we were all very passionate about our stance on our Government and the wrongdoings we are seeing on a daily basis.

Anonymous @ Parliament House Sydney (And 1 behind the camera)

Anonymous stopped by the front of the Parliament house in Sydney.

After making our presence known (and watching the Police Guard get on the radio and call for someone to come see what was going on) we decided we would spend some time hanging out, at Parliament house.

It was then decided we would move on and go visit the local apple store for a snap flyer hand out.

Anonymous @ Apple Store Sydney – Flyer Hand out

Lunch time in the city means shoppers, the apple store provided plenty of those.

Handing out a variety of #OpNov5 #OpVendetta flyers, “Corporate Media Lies to You” among others.

After running out of flyers, we decided it was time to head back to Occupy to load up with flyers and see if any other Anons have arrived.

On our way back to Occupy we ran into the man below. He is seen quite regularly around Sydney with his Signs. I have dubbed thee, Mr Be Happy.

Anonymous with Mr “Be Happy” – Martin Place Sydney

Upon arriving at Occupy, we were graced with more fellow Anons. After another quick greeting, we discussed and headed off to Parliament house for another stint at the gates.

Anonymous Flag flies above Occupy Sydney

The absurd contradictions of Capitalism – Attached to Occupy Sydney Base.

Whilst at Parliament, more Anons came to grace us with their presence. Was great to have some awesome passionate people who are dedicated and committed to stand up for the wrongdoings they see in ours and other countries. I was proud to stand along side my brothers and sisters on this day.

Anonymous and Citizen (with Baby) stand in Solidarity @ Parliament house

More Anons arrive @ Parliament

Anonymous Occupying the front of Parliament House Sydney

Anonymous – Watching the Watchers in Sydney, Au.

Whilst the actions were slow (it was a Monday and most were at work or uni etc), a mega phone couldn’t be located as required, our passion and commitment was louder than any megaphone could have been. Some citizens stopped to question us as to why we were there and generally we were well received with only a few comments against what we are standing for. I did kindly remind some that “if you don’t stand for something, you will fall for anything”.  We also did a small action out the front of the US Embassy at the MLC Centre where Aussie Activist demanded the US release Bradley Manning, leave Julian Assange alone and stay out of Australian Politics.

Occupying the gates of Parliament House Sydney

V for Vendetta #OpVendetta

As some Anons had to leave due to family commitments (and extended travel to come to sydney for the action), our crowd slowly dwindled down, but the passion and honor was still present. As we displayed our message to parliament and those whom entered and left the building. A group of students and tourists greeted the anons with requests of pictures and big thumbs up. Overall, the response to Anons at Parliament house was positive. Much appreciated Sydney and those whom stopped for a chat with the Anons on November 5th.

Aussie Activist discussing the reasons for Anonymous Occupying the gates of parliament house with a member of the public

Legislative Assembly – V for Vendetta and a message from Aussie Activist

A message to the Legislative Assembly from Aussie Activist.

At just after 5pm, we decided to head back down to Occupy Sydney to see if any further anons had arrived. Occupiers whom stand in solidarity with Anons were present at the Occupy site and showed solidarity for our actions on this day. As it was a Monday, Sydney’s Wall Street gets awfully quiet in the evening time, so i decided to hang around and see if others showed for night actions.

Anonymous @ Occupy Sydney

A Photographic History of Occupy Sydney

Attending the Occupy Sydney GA until 8pm and no further Anons arriving at Occupy, i decided i would call it a day and head home for my 45mins-1hr trip home from Sydney city to my locality in ‘the burbs’ and to my wonderful kiddies.

#OpPinkPower – Aussie Activist at Occupy Sydney

Anonymous Poster @ Occupy Sydney

In all, i was disappointed in the lack of effort of Anons in the Greater Sydney Basin, however, in saying that, on this day, i saw quality, not quantity. The Anons that stood outside Parliament represented the dedicated, selfless and downright Awesome of the Anons in Greater Sydney Basin, so to them (and they know who they are) a huge THANK YOU from me to you, brothers and sister.

They are all crap. When representative democracy fails, direct democracy is our other option

Until next time we meet. Remember, Remember, the 5th of November.

#AnonFamily #Love.

As recent protests globally have bought to light the current “police state” of the world, i decided to put together a blog of information i have received in the last 12 months in regards to Activism and protection of your self whilst protesting among other important information.

Handbook for Bloggers and Cyber Dissidents RSF.org-Handbook-For-CyberDissidents.pdf

How to safely publish Word to PDFNSA-HowTo-Safely-Publish-WordtoPDF.pdf

Protestors Guide to Organise Demonstrations Amidst Repression – ProtestorsGuideToOrganiseDemonstrationsAmidstRepression.pdf

Basic First Aid (NOTE: This does not replace qualified medical assistance and all persons injured at a protest should consult an ambulance officer, registered GP or Clinic if  any medical assistance further than basic help is required. Remember 911 DOES NOT WORK in AUSTRALIA. Ensure you have emergency contacts in case of medical emergency.

FirstAid-Made-Easy.pdf

Declaration of Independence of Cyberspace

by John Perry Barlow <barlow@eff.org>

Governments of the Industrial World, you weary giants of flesh and  steel, I come from Cyberspace, the new home of Mind. On behalf of the  future, I ask you of the past to leave us alone. You are not welcome  among us. You have no sovereignty where we gather.

We have no elected government, nor are we likely to have one, so I  address you with no greater
authority than that with which liberty  itself always speaks. I declare the global social space we are building
to be naturally independent of the tyrannies you seek to impose on us.  You have no moral right to rule us nor do
you possess any methods of  enforcement we have true reason to fear.

Governments derive their just powers from the consent of the  governed. You have neither solicited nor received ours. We did not  invite you. You do not know us, nor do you know our world. Cyberspace  does not lie within your borders. Do not think that you can build it, as  though it were a public construction project. You cannot. It is an act  of nature and it grows itself through our collective actions.

You have not engaged in our great and gathering conversation, nor did  you create the wealth of our marketplaces. You do not know our culture,  our ethics, or the unwritten codes that  already provide our society  more order than could be obtained by any of your impositions.

You claim there  are problems among us that you need to solve. You use  this claim as an excuse to invade our precincts.
Many of these problems  don’t exist. Where there are real conflicts, where there are wrongs, we  will identify them and address them by our means. We are forming our  own Social Contract . This governance will arise according to the  conditions of our world, not yours. Our world is different.

Cyberspace consists of transactions, relationships, and thought  itself, arrayed like a standing wave in the web of our communications.  Ours is a world  that is both everywhere and nowhere, but it is not where  bodies live.

We are creating a world that all may
enter without privilege or  prejudice accorded by race, economic power, military force, or station  of birth.

We are creating a world where anyone, anywhere may express his or her  beliefs, no matter how singular, without
fear of being coerced into  silence or conformity.

Your legal concepts of property, expression, identity, movement, and  context do not apply to us. They are all based on matter, and there is  no matter here.

Our identities have no bodies, so, unlike you, we cannot obtain order  by physical coercion. We believe that
from ethics, enlightened  self-interest, and the commonweal, our governance will emerge . Our  identities
may be distributed across many of your jurisdictions. The  only law that all our constituent cultures would
generally recognize is  the Golden Rule. We hope we will be able to build our particular  solutions on that
basis. But we cannot accept the solutions you are  attempting to impose.

In the United States, you have today created a law, the  Telecommunications Reform Act, which repudiates your own Constitution  and insults the dreams of Jefferson, Washington, Mill, Madison,  DeToqueville, and Brandeis. These dreams must now be born anew in us.

You are terrified of your own children, since they are natives in a  world where you will always be immigrants.
Because you fear them, you  entrust your bureaucracies with the parental responsibilities you are  too cowardly
to confront yourselves. In our world, all the sentiments  and expressions of humanity, from the debasing to the
angelic, are parts  of a seamless whole, the global conversation of bits. We cannot  separate the air that chokes
from the air upon which wings beat.

In China, Germany, France, Russia, Singapore, Italy and the United  States, you are trying to ward off the virus of liberty by erecting  guard posts at the frontiers of Cyberspace. These may keep out the  contagion for a small time, but they will not work in a world that will  soon be blanketed in bit -bearing media.

Your increasingly obsolete information industries would perpetuate  themselves by proposing laws,  in America and elsewhere, that claim to  own speech itself throughout the world. These laws would declare ideas  to be another industrial product, no more noble than pig iron. In our  world, whatever the human mind may create can be reproduced and  distributed infinitely at no cost. The global conveyance of thought no  longer requires your factories to accomplish.

These increasingly hostile and colonial measures place us in the same  position as those previous lovers of freedom and self-determination who  had to reject the authorities of distant, uninformed powers. We must  declare our virtual selves immune to your sovereignty, even as we  continue to consent to your rule over our bodies. We will spread  ourselves across the Planet so that no one can arrest our thoughts.

We will create a civilization of the Mind in Cyberspace. May it be more humane and fair than the world your governments have made before.

Davos, Switzerland
February 8, 1996

PFC Bradley Manning, Information & false classification: Violations of Human Rights by the United States of America

By: R.A. Fowler

Academic Document – NOTE: Due to the current copyright laws and my status as a University Student, i must post the following note:

 The attached document is Copyrighted to R.A. Fowler. This paper may be used at your own  discretion, please link to this page for source information and validation of this statement of usage. This paper may be used by University Students globally in regards to the treatment of Bradley Manning and Violations of human rights by the United States of America but must adhere to the following passage for your own legal protection. Please all Academics NOTE: This document has been submitted via an academic system that looks for fraudulent works. Any use of this information in any academic documents must be cited correctly or the issue of Fraud may be raised by your Academic Advisor.

PFC Bradley Manning, Information & False Classification: Violations of Human Rights by the United States of America (PDF DOWNLOAD) copyright 2012

Last week Tuesday, like usual in the morning rush of getting 3 kids and myself ready for school I check the recess snacks box and as every Tuesday before, empty.

As usual, my first stop at the school is the canteen on a Tuesday morn to purchase a pkt of chips for the kids for recess. I usually only give my kids plain salted, but on a Tuesday, they get to pick. This day was the same as always, well at least I thought.

After picking their chips I told the lady what I wanted. It was then in her reply a wave of shock hit me. Did I just hear her correctly? I cannot purchase chips in the morning to place in my kids bag for recess? “sorry” I responded rather confused.

“I can’t sell you chips, you need to order them and the kids will come and collect them” she said. Well I responded with my usual, consider the teacher has almost 30 kids in her class the chances of her remembering what child has a recess order is quite minimal ( basing this on the fact that a: this teacher I’m referring to is the stage 2 coordinator so is removed from class, alot & b: it took this teacher & a few TAs 5 days to hand out my daughters cupcakes for her birthday!!

The lady advised me that due to new P&C rules enforced by P&C parents (who do not utilize the canteen), state in order to stop kids eating chips in the morning no one can buy them. Please, she implored, complain about it to the office. So I left it at that, and made a beeline for the office.

When I asked the office staff what legislative power the P&C had to inforce this fascist order against the sale of chips, she was quite adamant in the stance it was to stop kids eating chips before school. My response; considering 70% have them in their bag already, I see no point banning parents from purchasing and placing in bags, but fully agree that children should not eat or buy them in the morn. I advised this lady about the cupcake incident and told her that I wanted the principal to do something about it or I would.

A week later I had heard nothing, and had in the process boycotted the canteen. I was about to call the school, when suddenly hubby piped up out of no where and stated ” oh babe, the canteen lady said this morning thank your wife for me, because of her I don’t have to insult parents and tell them they can’t buy chips.

A smile came over my face. It made me feel proud. That I, me, just 1 person had the guts to say something and be adamant that as an adult I would not have another adult take away my freedom to buy a packet of bloody chips.

The task was small, the purpose seems meek over a packet of chips, but the point is; if you don’t speak up when you see someone’s rights be denied, nothing will ever change. “someone else will do it” never works, cuz what happens when all those someone else are gone, who is the someone else to fight for you then?

Stand up, be heard, you are more powerful than you believe.

AussieActivist

The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2011 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

A San Francisco cable car holds 60 people. This blog was viewed about 2,700 times in 2011. If it were a cable car, it would take about 45 trips to carry that many people.

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Click here to see the 2012 report.

So here are a collection of video’s i’ve found on Youtube. I decided to embed them into a blog to ensure easy reference for people to send to friends, family, co workers, everyone. Get these video’s out there and start doing your own research.

The recent Japanese Earthquake and Nuclear disaster has shown us how easily the Governments of the world lie to us. “Oh Fukushima isn’t that bad” oh really, that’s why people are reporting elevated radiation levels in the air, water, earth, food and more! Reports say that the Haiti Government over-calculated how many people were actually affected by the earthquake of 2010, (not saying it wasn’t horrifically bad but just pointing out lies). Australian government added “Fluoride” to our water supply, telling us it was good for us and our children, however if you watch Fire Water, clearly there is evidence that it is NOT good for us! George W Bush said that Saddam Hussein had Weapons of Mass Destruction. He invaded Iraq, (they are still at war remember) found NO weapons of mass destruction. (not saying Saddam shouldn’t have been held accountable for his crimes, again pointing out a lie). Julia Gillard said “There will be no carbon tax under my government” Hello! We have a carbon tax now and she is still our Prime Minister! See…formulate your own opinion, use the power of your brain and find out WHAT is going on!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Howdy People.

I thought today i’d do a blog Journal and then i’ll do a blog with some video’s on it.

So over the last few years, i’ve noticed some things about the sky and our clouds. That well, the clouds just sometimes don’t look like normal clouds. Jet streams cover the sky and seem to fan out over the horizon. Some call these #Contrails, but interestingly, contrails should actually dissipate within an hour or so. However, these ones don’t seem to dissipate, they spread and cover the sky with a fine layer of hazy white cloud.

I always thought this was weird, but just took it that well our earth is changing i guess the clouds must be as well?  But then i’ve seen planes fly over head and leave their trails and always wondered why the trails didnt leave like they used to.

It wasn’t until yesterday that i was given a name for these trails. #Chemtrails – Yes Chemtrails, NOT Contrails. A trail of chemical that is sprayed out overhead via aeroplane. I was actually quite miffed as to why they would do this so high in the atmosphere, as i know if they were spraying agriculture it would be lower to the ground. (Another point to add, i live in Western Sydney (Blacktown) NSW. It is actually a city and is quite huge an area. 20 years ago it was alot of small farming and agriculture land, but now it is pretty much a concrete jungle of houses, roads and buildings. We still thankfully have alot of tree’s and parks etc in our area. So why do i see these trails overhead in my local area? They are certainly not “Crop Spraying” in Blacktown.

Now i don’t consider myself a conspiracy theorist but this is definitely sending off alarm bells in my mind. I do know for certain on days when there is heavy haze cloud and spray activity, i get sick. I’ve always got a cough, i get watery eyes, itchy eyes, sore throat and consistent medical conditions from Bowel issues to benign tumor (as in my about me page) etc.

So last night i started watching some great documentaries on Chemtrails, Haarp and other things such as the NWO and boy has it got me stumped. I’ve always known about the Illuminati and have read a few books about “conspiracy” within church’s etc but i really never thought it could be true. I guess i was “brainwashed” into believing that our world leaders do actually care about us. But the more i see going on in the world, the more i see, that they don’t.

This is totally just my opinion and i know others don’t share the same. They can send me a million “debunking” video’s but i wont be fazed by them. The govt, independent scholars working for “Govt Funded Universities” etc are always going to tell the masses what they want to hear to avoid “Mass Hysteria” They will label you a “Dirty Hippie” if you protest, A “Crazy Person” if you believe in Conspiracy Theories, they will do everything in their power to make you believe in the system. But just stop there, look at the world right now, Tunisia, Egypt, Libya, Syria, Sudan, South Sudan, Somalia, Yemen, uprisings in these places, also Ivory Coast and some other areas that i cannot remember at this point. Take a look at the #Occupy Movement, Wall Street, USA, Oakland, Occupy London, Amsterdam, Greece, Rome, Occupy Sydney, Melbourne, Brisbane, All over the world, people are waking up to the fact our governments ARE NOT on our side, they are serving the elites. Whomever those elites may be. I don’t know and i wont make rumors or try and say whom the elite are, but some people, a group, be it illuminati, New World Order, whatever. Something Sinister is going on.

I’ve been a weekend Occupier at Sydney and from what i’ve seen of the excessive use of force by police to silence protesters is just beyond belief. Psychological Intimidation, scare tactics, its just uncalled for. Why are they trying to silence us? Why are they covering up things? Why is Julia Gillard having closed door meetings and pushing so hard to be on the UN Security Council?

All i can say is

Question Everything and Believe NOTHING that main stream media such as Channel 7, 9 & 10 and any Murdoch owned media says/prints/distributes.

Search Independant local reports and always and i mean always verify your sources with other sources if possible. i dont want to create panic, i just want people to ask questions.

@AussieActivist

Note: No links will lead to Govt Websites on these programs as i do not believe they are giving us the full information.

November 6th, 2011.

Occupy Sydney held their first major Rally yesterday. Starting at 12noon.

I was at Town Hall at around 11am and met with some Occupy Sydney Facilitators to offer a hand for the day with anything needed. I was asked to assist the First Aid team and gladly took on this task. Donning a white arm band with a red cross on it, I was given a crash course in CPR assistance as well as other issues.

Being a mum I felt confident in myself caring for a minor injury such as fall and cuts etc but whoa! CPR! Hope we don’t need that. I thought to myself.

During this time the Maritime Union members arrived along with some from 4 different local Teachers Unions. The PA system was set up and people giving speech’s. We heard speakers from MUA, Teachers Unions, NT Intervention and were given an official “Welcome to Country” by an Indigenous leader with blessing from her elders. Welcome to country provides those whom are welcomed with permission to occupy the land and protection. I felt we needed the protection from the police, after witnessing first hand the forceful eviction a few weeks earlier.

After all speech’s were given, we formed our marching group with MUA leading the charge, the riff raff band right behind to provide the tunes for the march. I took my place on the side nearest the gutter to be assessable if needed. My sign read: “Don’t Abuse our human rights. Freedom of Speech” # OccupySydney” the other side read. “End Wars. I want peace on earth for all children, not just my own! #OccupyTogether.”

I proudly marched through the city from Town Hall to Martin Place carrying this message with me. I believe in our Human Rights, Australia is supposed to as well, considering they are signatory to the Geneva Convention!

Upon arriving at Martin Place, audio was connected and more speech’s and songs/ dancing followed. A GA was then called and members of the public were asked to put their makes on the speaking list if they wanted to say something. I happily did! I introduced myself and told of my experience of occupy. How safe i felt with my fellow occupiers and was only scared when police took forceful action. I am in awe if the love and peace and solidarity at occupy Sydney.

Lots of points came up at the GA but I’ll touch on 2. 1. Was to vote to re-occupy Sydney. 2. The location of the occupy.

A concensus was formed we would re-occupy. A few suggestions were floated around, but due to our time running our at Martin Place we had to rap it up. We decided we would head to Hyde Park and continue the GA. We then walked to Hyde park and were followed again by police.

We re-assembled at Hyde Park and continued our GA. Consensus was to occupy Hyde Park hut if move on orders came, we would have a plan b. This plan b was Victoria park where an indigenous Tent Embassy would be established, this would give occupiers the right to sleep without hassles by police.

At one point someone in the crowd had put up a tent AGAINSt advice of occupy Sydney. This immediately drew police attention and a crowd of police formed. (I’m of the opinion it was probably the undercover cop we had in our crowd that did this). The tent was removed and a tense stand off persisted for about another 5 or so mins.

Things calmed again and we all went back to our GA.

Our speaker had to leave due to the stand off taking his speaking time. (police knew he was speaking at that time, that iswhy I believe it was set up) as he is a professor from a local uni.

Police then continued to pick people off one by one. Anyone with a yoga mat was told it was camping equipment and that it could be used in committing a crime! What bullshit! We had yoga instructors in the crowd and people were meditating as well. We are for peace! Not brutality.

A woman was arrested after climbing a tree. More tense stand offs happened and people grouped together and formed human ring to continue Talking and to protect others from any police harm. They were too worries to sit at this point due to intimidating tactics used by the mounted police. No one wanted to be trampled.

I was sitting on the outskirts and decided to lay down and read a book for a little while. Deciding what to do as it was getting late and I knew I needed to bus it home which is at least 1 hr I’d not longer.

It was at this point I left occupy with another first aider and decided to head home. I have family commitments on Sunday so was what I needed to do.

My phone had gone flat by this time and it wasn’t until I got home that I could get twitter updates.

At around 1.30-2am occupy Sydney was given an official “move on” order to which consensus was taken and all protesters peacefully dispersed from Hyde park, heading to a place they had been offered by someone so they could not be moved on.

From what I’m aware police followed the group over 6 blocks through the city. Then deemed it as illegal march! What bullshit!

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Here is a very clear HD video taken at the Raid on Occupy Sydney at the weekend by NSW Police force Operation Goulding.

 

23rd October, 2011

Last night I headed into Occupy Sydney as I had been the previous Sunday and had enjoyed the atmosphere and conversation, I decided to return.

I arrived at Martin Place around 9pm and began mingling with other occupiers. Everyone is quite happy to chat to everyone. Under 10 police were in attendance that I could see. After some conversations, dinner, dancing and social love, a few occupiers decided sleep was needed. A few others including myself moved away from sleepers and further down Martin place as to not disturb.

A group of us were dancing, singing and conversing with the general public. We had people from all walks of life and nationality come join us, to play a tune on the bongo drums or chat. A woman who was watching the action came over and did a belly dance for us.

It was great. Upon one of my bathroom visits, i walked by 2 officers, greeted them with smile, “hello” and wished them a nice night. They responded the same, however I was genuine in what I said.

At around 3.30am I decided to retire for the night on my patch of carpet. No sooner than I have dozed off it seemed that the cavalry had arrived.

I awoke to shouts, everyone get up, get your stuff, get your cameras out. Dazed I jumped to my feet, put my shoes on, bagged my snuggie & pillow and switched on my iPhone camera. I have a iPhone 3 so it has no light or flash. I started recording what I could see. I couldn’t hear what police were saying as I was near the back (i dont have good hearing in left ear) But was told by an occupier “supposedly we have ten mins to get out of here” I saw an officer rip up a cloth sign belonging to an occupier, he basically shredded it. I suppose a warning of what they wanted to do to us.

The people closest to the frontline start questioning police as to why we were being removed. Who ordered the removal. Other things were being said as well as screams from a homeless man who is bi-polar. I’m unsure if his name.

I then saw a shuffle starting and police grabbed an occupier by the head, another occupier tried to help his fellow occupier to release police hold of what I believe to be a head, that officer then let a hand free and swung a punch at the defender. I screamed at witnessing this and shouted “he threw a punch” my exact words I’m unsure but I do have some video footage I’m sorting through as it’s very blurred and dark. I will update this again tonight with video.

After this the force from NSW police erupted. They were throwing people’s belongings, breaking personal property , well I should say public property as all public are free to occupy and use.

2 male police officers took down a female occupier. Screams of pain by us and smirks from police.

I chanted “You are part of the 99%, we are here for you”.

I by this time was backing away as ordered and was almost sent flying down the stairs when police were trying to drag away occupiers unable to unlink arms. Extreme force on wrist holds was also noted.

I had moved further down through Martin Place now and was past where the cars and vans were and the arrested occupiers.

I had both hands full with items, also filming and walking away as told when I was shoved in the back by an officer. Instantly I was enraged, I was doing as ordered and he was now physically intimidating me. I responded to his shove  his response was “I’m helping”. In what way does a shove mean helping? More like a physical intimidation tactic. I do NOT (as a victim of sexual assault) take kindly to anyone touching me for no reason or without cause. The shove was totally uncalled for.

Copyrighted Footage Here – NOT TO BE USED WITHOUT MY WRITTEN CONSENT. I do not agree with anyone other than Occupy Sydney Media using this footage. Any use of footage, voice or stills will result in legal proceedings.

I saw a bloody face, heard women screaming and I was in shock. We had moved further down Martin place, dialogue with police started, we were regrouping. We were going to figure out what to do and move another 100mtrs away to deal with issue at hand. Police agreed, then moments later changed mind and forced us to move.

After that I continued to move on as directed, after reminding the police that the Queen wasn’t coming to Sydney, told them specifically, “She does not like Sydney because your here!”

A few of us began to sing Advance Australia Fair. Until yet again driven down street by line of riot police.

Just about to cross road to St James station, I stopped as the car turn lane was green and pedestrian light red. An officer then told me to walk, i said no, light is red and he shoved me off the curb and forced me to walk (as well as others). I continued to remind him the light to walk was red, to no avail. Luckily for us no cars were there.

I told that officer too, not to shove me and said “who do you think you are? Macho Man Randy Savage? f’wit.” I then turned, walked away, but my mouth got the better of me and i said “if i wanted to get pushed around I’d go home to a husband”. (in saying that I meant pushes around, as in told what to do, even my hubby/partner would not shove me.) all the time i remained doing what i was told and walking away. I never threatened any officer verbally so why was I shoved and physically intimidated?

We had arrived at St James station, sat in park and agreed with police in presence we would do a GA and decide what to do next. The officers stood around, a large proportion then headed back to Martin place whilst a small few remained to watch us.

People can make up their own views and opinions on this but I know what I saw with my own eyes. Police thuggery. Army style covert mission on sleeping civilians.

I make no apologies to the 2 officers I swore at, you instigated my heated word response with your uncalled for physical action when I was obeying your orders! At least i was non violent and didn’t physically intimidate anyone.

So at the end of today, ive cried, screamed, shook, felt ill, felt every emotion and I sat on my bed and wondered if I am strong enough to fight .

My answer is YES! I have occupy brothers and sisters worldwide who support. I see the faces of my students and remember the struggles they faced and the long hard fight they fought for freedom. I see the world struggle each day. It is for all humanity I say #OccupyTogether!

Link to official Occupy Sydney Website
Occupy Sydney

-Rebecca
@AussieActivist

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At 7am, Friday the 21st October, 2011 the Occupy Melbourne Protesters were issued with an eviction order to remove themselves from Melbourne’s City Square by 9am or risk forced eviction by Victorian Police. A cyclone fence was then erected by council around the protesters to ensure no one could enter or leave.

Occupy Melbourne protesters determined to have their voices heard decided to defy the public eviction order and stand firm in their grounds for Protesting against Corporate Greed, among other things. A tense stand off between police and activist then ensued. Arousing public solidarity, hundreds of local citizens began surrounding the Victorian Police.  In Solidarity and some in curiosity, the bystanders were witnesses to the horrific brutality by the Victorian Police Dept.

Protester dragged by the Hair by Victorian Police Force at Occupy Melbourne Protests. Photograph via @timemanuelle (Twitter)

By midday, activists were being dragged away by police using excessive force. Activists were also taunted by police whilst being arrested, with reports of police making derogatory comments to activist and trying to initiate a violent reaction by protesters. Mounted Units and Dog Units were also called to the scene.  A person was trampled by a mounted officer and another was punched in the face. Numerous accounts of excessive police force have been recorded and uploaded to Youtube.

Protester washes mace from eyes with Mylanta. Photograph taken by @Asher_Wolf

Throughout the afternoon the protesters were pushed back from City Square by mounted forces and riot police to where they currently occupy, Trades Hall Building. The trades building has given the Occupy Movement permission to stay on the premises for the evening. The trades building is currently surrounded by Police and will be throughout the night.

Some protesters were held and released without charge but given and “Move On” Order that basically does not allow them to enter back into the CBD Area (certain blocks) until a future date. If they are arrested within that area, they will be charged. Information received shows these orders are governed by the Summary Offences and Control of Weapons Acts Amendment (SOCW). FOr more information Click Here to read the contradiction in Human Rights and this Act.

Occupy Melbourne are organizing a rally to take place on Saturday 22nd October, and i suggest anyone who cares about our country and the way it is headed (and the world) then you should take part in having your voice heard. Check out @OccupyMelbourne @OccupySydney @OccupyBrisbane @OccupyPerth for more information on how you can get involved. or just head down to the Occupied areas!

If the Local and Federal Governments think that this is just going to “Go Away” then they are wrong. We have had enough of being silenced. Of seeing the injustice and having nothing done by our electorates about it.  Australia is just as effected by the current global conditions as any other country. Our dollar is bouncing, Super is being wiped off our investments, people are losing jobs, food prices are skyrocketing, our agricultural land is being sold off to the highest mining bidder, what more do Aussies need to get  motivated? How about good ol’ Julia’s Lies or Abbotts lack of giving any clear policy on anything but “Narua!”

Write to your local MP, Harass them via Email, Twitter, Phone, Personal Appointments, tell them NO to Corporate Greed and Yes to Human Need. We need to start putting purpose and people Before Profits!

The Government of Australia has alot to answer for. It is the year 2011. The year the 99% rose up and took back the power from the 1%. No wonder they are fighting so hard to silence us.

#WeAreThe99Percent #OccupySydney #OccupyMelbourne #OccupyArrests #Freedom #NoCorporateGreed

More Video Here

I will be following the cause closely. I have taken part in Occupy Sydney last weekend and hope to be back there this weekend sometime.

So today i was back at the HARDA office in Homebush West. I’m currently the Volunteer Program Co-Ordinator for the African Men’s English Program.  I enjoy volunteering with HARDA as i get to meet and know a range of diverse Australians. I also get to help people at a grass roots level.  I have met some of the most wonderful people, with such stories to share. One of my good friends; A Lost Boy, Another a Community Elder, so many more with such kindess in their hearts and stories that would have you literally in tears. Volunteering is one of the best decisions i have ever made.  I have actually been volunteering since i was a small child. My parents have been involved in the local Lions Club International for the last 20+ years so each project and community function, us kids went along to give back to the community.  Its like second nature to me.

My passion with volunteering really peaked in about 2007, when i was given a copy of the Invisible Children DVD, and since then, My life changed! You can read about it on my ABOUT ME page!

This year, we have decided to take our volunteering to the next level. My 11 yr old son and i will be volunteering on Christmas Day to serve the homeless within our local community. Its something that i know will be rewarding, and will also show my son the other side of life, and i hope instill good morals and ethics into him as what ive taught. However, this time he will get hands on into it.  My son is no stranger to volunteering himself. Since he was 6yrs old he has been in our local Scouts Group (Cubs and Joey). Through Scouts, children are taught so many great things, they also volunteer in their local & extended communities throughout the state.  In 2009, my son also attended the Invisible Children RESCUE Event and took part in a Worldwide Advocacy Event that over 80,000 people took part in. I am ever so proud that my son shows great enthusiasm to helping others. I hope that through my kids, my Legacy of helping and serving will shine through.

The Rescue Aftermath Media Clip by Invisible Children

If you have time on your hands, seriously consider volunteering your time. Find something your passionate about, could be people, animals, earth, and ring a good Charity or NGO and ask if you can volunteer, alternatively you can go to Volunteering Australia and check out who needs a hand!

Posted by: Rebecca

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11th January, 2011

Late yesterday afternoon, the situation in QLD and Norther NSW worsened.  A torrent of water raged through the town of Toowoomba and headed down the mountain to the Lockyer Valley. Flash Flooding, extreme devastation, 8 confirmed dead of which 4 are children and up to if not more than, 72 people are reported missing.

This torrent came without warning in Toowoomba at around 2.30pm on Monday Afternoon QLD East Coast time. Here are a few video’s from Toowoomba.

Currently the towns of Ipswitch, Caboolture and Strathpine are being evacuated. Plenty of more towns are still affected.

This is a major tradgety unfolding in my country and having family who are stuck in qld trying to get home to sydney and family who live in qld it is very scary for us who can just do nothing more than watch the news.

Please pray for an ease to our disaster.

-Freeuganda

10th January, 2011 – Rebecca-Anne Fowler

Video from the Sudanese Australian Celebrations in Sydney last night for the start of Referendum.

The dancing and singing is amazing, these women are amazing, resiliant and so beautiful.  Thank you to the Sudanese Australian Community for inviting me to share this wonderful night with you all.

10th January, 2011 – Rebecca-Anne Fowler

The second day of referendum voting for Southern Sudanese in Australia has started again at 8am this morning. 

Last night i was invited by one of my Southern Sudanese friends William, to attend a celebration/meeting of Southern Communites after the first day of referendum voting ended.  The night was a mix of speech’s, dancing and celebration for the coming months ahead.

Speech’s were given by elders and leaders, women were dancing and singing and the mood was electric, the theme: A New Sudan. When anyone mentioned a New Sudan the place erupted into cheers, it was amazing to see the Unity of the Southern Sudanese Tribes in this room.   I myself was even called to give a speech. This was totally out of the blue and not expected. I did my best unprepared speech and got a huge round of applause. I felt so welcomed by all who attended.

It was also a great night for me to catch up with a few of my students and others whom i met at the Youth Conference in Sydney in NOV. I got to catch up with the wonderful Mr John Garang (not the late of course) and he was dressed in his military attire. He was happy to pose for a photo with one of his friends. 

After speaking with a few of the attendee’s last night, i got a brief feeling that the general consensus for this vote will be a separation. One of the speakers said “The Late John Garang fought for this freedom for us, our fathers, mothers, sisters and brothers who were killed in the war have fought for this for us, now it is our turn to fight for them by voting in the referendum for separation.” Words than rang so true with most of the attendee’s.

I also spoke with a former “lost boy” who whilst not going into full details of his life, i could see that it had taken a devastating toll on the life of many. This particular gentleman now works for ActionAid and is doing great things here in Australia for his own community and many other communities around the world. It is so inspiring to know that someone who has been tested in the most atrocious  of ways in life, has come through and is now giving back to community. I am inspired and at awe of these wonderful resiliant people who have come through devastating times to find some hope in their future. It simply amazes me.

This Tuesday i will be heading into the referendum centre here in Homebush Sydney and will be speaking with some Southern Sudanese on their hopes and dreams for the referendum. I feel so simply honored to be able to be a part of their lives here in Australia and to share their stories with the world is truly a blessing for me.

This year i hope to start writing a book with a few of my students, their life stories. Its going to be an amazing year for the Southern Sudanese communities and i wish them all the hope and happiness for their futures.

-Freeuganda

 

Speakers and Woman Dancing at Celebration

All Photographs Copyrighted to Rebecca-Anne Fowler. Please DO NOT Distribute WITHOUT Permission

So today is my second last day at the HARDA office for this years African Men’s English Program. Tomorrow we will be having our graduation for 2010 and my students are excited yet aprehensive.

“What will we do for the next 8 weeks?” is a common question that is arising. With both our classes and TAFE classes finished for the year the men seem to be at a loss at what they will do with their time. Alot of them are asking about employment over the holidays, what can they do to gain some casual employment.

I feel troubled by the prospects of them going back to the parks they were sitting in before we were able to gain their attendance.  With all the weeks of nothing ahead (f0r our single students) they are at a loss. It pains me that i can not do more. I feel like i’m sometimes caught between a rock and a hard place. But yet again, i am only one person. I do what i can to make the lifes of those around me better and i guess that is all i can do.

I am looking forward to our graduation ceremony tomorrow morning and i know my students are as well. They have invited their families and i am hoping to see a great turnout in support of them. I have started to receive the tutor reports and am amazed at how well some of them have come in the last 12 months due to our program.  It makes me feel like we are doing something worthwhile and giving back to those who need our help.

I have made some wonderful friends with the Sudanese males that i have been involved with and the stories they can tell, wow they will blow you away.

Just this morning one of my students was telling me that he finally got to speak to his sister last month after 24 yrs of absence. She had no idea he was living in Australia and had not seen him since he was a small boy. I think of my own family and not seeing my sister for 24 yrs and how hard that would be on my family so i can only imagine how hard it has been for him. Living here in Australia with NO family. A Lost Boy, still searching for the life he wants. It pains me to hear his stories, so we made a pact, we will go to Sudan together one day and meet with his family. I myself am not rich, i struggle on financially with my own family and life but somehow, someday, god will help us take this journey together, so i can retrace his steps, meet his family and learn more about how my fellow friends from southern sudan have been forced to live for far too long in unresolved war like conditions. Ipray for nothing more than peace for southern sudan and for my friends to be able to return home to a democractic society that they so enjoy here in Australia.

I have also been trying to get on here and blog about my experience at the Horn of African Youth Conference a fortnight ago but am having issues with my internet cable (kids have tripped over it one too many times and its not working) and then my camera decided it did not want me to print the pics on the SD card when i took it to officeworks. So once i have fixed the “Technical” issues facing me ill have the blog up and the pics of the weekend up as well. (I am blogging from the HARDA office this morn).

Also Please Please Please if you want to do something  for someone this Christmas purchase one of our Shirts or Products from ALL FOR CHARITY STORE and 100% of the profits made are used to support a Child Headed Household in Uganda of 5 Children. Betty the eldest girl is a budding scientist and we would love nothing more than to see her acheive her goals. For more information on Betty and her family, please VISIT HERE

-Freeuganda

Tuesday 23rd November 2010

I was at the HARDA (Horn of Africa Relief & Development Agency) office today as usual for my Tuesday Morning Volunteering to co-ordinate the African Men’s English Program. We had a great conversation at our Morning Tea session and i thought it was worthwhile to discuss.

John, (our dear leader) had raised the subject of how hard it was for African Refugee’s to gain employment in Australia and what services are available out there for further training. It was a great topic. A few of our students were really encouraged and opened up to us. “I worked for 20 months after coming to Australia as a printer” Santino from our level 3 english classed divulged. “In Sudan i worked as a printer in Khartoum”. He also added. “In Australia i learnt great lessons in my 20 months working, that quality of product is very important, the machinery is different and up to date in technology, that arriving on time to work is very important.” Santino advised. “I’ve applied for over 30 jobs in the Construction Industry” Spoke Ateem, “yet i’ve not gotten a job yet”. Ateem previously worked in construction for 12-18 months but was unable to continue his employment due to his english skills. This is why they attend our Mens English and Computer Classes, so he can gain a better understanding of the english language and how to adjust to life here in Australia in a casual and stress free setting. Even though they have completed 500 hours of English training through TAFE, they found that coming from a non english speaking country (in particular Dinka, tribal or Arabic languages) it is much harder to understand and learn english. They found that TAFE did not make them feel confident in learning the english language and they could not have too much extra help due to the high amount of students per teacher. Our courses offer low student to teacher ratio to ensure effective learning and absorbing of information.

This journey i have begun with the Southern Sudanese Community in NSW has been an amazing journey full of interesting, heart breaking and couraging stories of life. I really cannot fathome how there is so much racism and misinformation surrounding these lovely people living in our beautiful and free country. My dear Aussies, i ask of you to just take the time to get to know these wonderful and resilient people and the friendships you will make are ones that will last the tests of time. My friends have such wonderful faith and kindness to share with the world, their amazing culture and traditions are to be retained for their future generations and their expressions of love and life through dance and song is to be adored. They make the most amazing music and dances i have seen.

So its now time for me to sign off for tonight but i leave you with a refreshed and revamped website that i have been working on tonight to update my information as my paths entangle and my life takes on new challenges and projects, i hope to continue on this journey with you.
-Freeuganda

I came across this today on my travels throughout the internet and thought i would blog about it as its quite a well known thing but most people don’t actually know what our Universal Human Rights are.

Before you judge those refugee’s you see walking the streets, before you judge those asylum seekers in camps, read through this first, then ask yourself the question: “what has happened to them to make them leave their home and seek refuge in a country elsewhere that they do not know or belong”? Maybe when you can actually answer it with knowledge and fact, then you may finally change your mind about supporting Refugee’s and Asylum Seekers. – Freeuganda”

Universal Declaration
of Human Rights

Plain Language Version

1 When children are born, they are free and each should be treated in the same way. They have reason and conscience and should act towards one another in a friendly manner.
2 Everyone can claim the following rights, despite
– a different sex
– a different skin colour
– speaking a different language
– thinking different things
– believing in another religion
– owning more or less
– being born in another social group
– coming from another country
It also makes no difference whether the country you live in is independent or not.
3 You have the right to live, and to live in freedom and safety.
4 Nobody has the right to treat you as his or her slave and you should not make anyone your slave.
5 Nobody has the right to torture you.
6 You should be legally protected in the same way everywhere, and like everyone else.
7 The law is the same for everyone; it should be applied in the same way to all.
8 You should be able to ask for legal help when the rights your country grants you are not respected.
9 Nobody has the right to put you in prison, to keep you there, or to send you away from your country unjustly, or without good reason.
10 If you go on trial this should be done in public. The people who try you should not let themselves be influenced by others.
11 You should be considered innocent until it can be proved that you are guilty. If you are accused of a crime, you should always have the right to defend yourself. Nobody has the right to condemn you and punish you for something you have not done.
12 You have the right to ask to be protected if someone tries to harm your good name, enter your house, open your letters, or bother you or your family without a good reason.
13 You have the right to come and go as you wish within your country. You have the right to leave your country to go to another one; and you should be able to return to your country if you want.
14 If someone hurts you, you have the right to go to another country and ask it to protect you. You lose this right if you have killed someone and if you, yourself, do not respect what is written here.
15 You have the right to belong to a country and nobody can prevent you, without a good reason, from belonging to a country if you wish.
16 As soon as a person is legally entitled, he or she has the right to marry and have a family. In doing this, neither the colour of your skin, the country you come from nor your religion should be impediments. Men and women have the same rights when they are married and also when they are separated.
Nobody should force a person to marry.
The government of your country should protect you and the members of your family.
17 You have the right to own things and nobody has the right to take these from you without a good reason.
18 You have the right to profess your religion freely, to change it, and to practise it either on your own or with other people.
19 You have the right to think what you want, to say what you like, and nobody should forbid you from doing so. You should be able to share your ideas also—with people from any other country.
20 You have the right to organize peaceful meetings or to take part in meetings in a peaceful way. It is wrong to force someone to belong to a group.
21 You have the right to take part in your country’s political affairs either by belonging to the government yourself or by choosing politicians who have the same ideas as you. Governments should be voted for regularly and voting should be secret. You should get a vote and all votes should be equal. You also have the same right to join the public service as anyone else.
22 The society in which you live should help you to develop and to make the most of all the advantages (culture, work, social welfare) which are offered to you and to all the men and women in your country.
23 You have the right to work, to be free to choose your work, to get a salary which allows you to support your family. If a man and a woman do the same work, they should get the same pay. All people who work have the right to join together to defend their interests.
24 Each work day should not be too long, since everyone has the right to rest and should be able to take regular paid holidays.
25 You have the right to have whatever you need so that you and your family: do not fall ill or go hungry; have clothes and a house; and are helped if you are out of work, if you are ill, if you are old, if your wife or husband is dead, or if you do not earn a living for any other reason you cannot help. Mothers and their children are entitled to special care. All children have the same rights to be protected, whether or not their mother was married when they were born.
26 You have the right to go to school and everyone should go to school. Primary schooling should be free. You should be able to learn a profession or continue your studies as far as wish. At school, you should be able to develop all your talents and you should be taught to get on with others, whatever their race, religion or the country they come from. Your parents have the right to choose how and what you will be taught at school.
27 You have the right to share in your community’s arts and sciences, and any good they do. Your works as an artist, writer, or a scientist should be protected, and you should be able to benefit from them.
28 So that your rights will be respected, there must be an ‘order’ which can protect them. This ‘order’ should be local and worldwide.
29 You have duties towards the community within which your personality can only fully develop. The law should guarantee human rights. It should allow everyone to respect others and to be respected.
30 In all parts of the world, no society, no human being, should take it upon her or himself to act in such a way as to destroy the rights which you have just been reading about.

This plain language version is only given as a guide. For an exact rendering of each principle, refer students to the original. This version is based in part on the translation of a text, prepared in 1978, for the World Association for the School as an Instrument of Peace, by a Research Groyp of the University of Geneva, under the responsibility of Prof. L. Massarenti. In preparing the translation, the Group used a basic vocabulary of 2,500 words in use in the French-speaking part of Switzerland. Teachers may adopt this methodology by translating the text of the Universal Declaration in the language in use in their region.

via UDHR: Plain Language Version.

7th November 2010;  © Copyright Rebecca Fowler

Sydney Baha’i Centre in Silverwater came alive last night (saturday 6th November) as the Bahr El Gahzar Community of NSW Youth Union held their 2nd annual Culture Day.

Invited by a student that i work with through the HARDA African Mens English Project, i was enthralled in culture the moment i walked through the doors.

Arriving at around 6.15pm i was greeted by some 500+ Bahr El Gahzar community members. Speech’s were made by community leaders and Youth leaders and songs from the homeland sung to unite the community. I was engaged in cultural dancing and song. A local Bahr El Gahzar rap group of Youth’s took to the stage and the atmosphere turned electric. As soon as these youth picked up the microphones the crowd went wild. they belted out their tune singing about a “New Sudan” and “Unity” between the Southern Sudanese. It was a great moment, part of it i was able to capture on video but due to the noise of the screams had to cut it short…VIDEO HERE

The Youth Leaders spoke to the youth of the community about how they need to use their time in Australia for good. To stick with their education and be motivated by the prospects of a New Sudan in the year ahead. Supporting the referendum in January was also high on the list, as well as keeping the youth off the streets.

As a westerner looking in on African Culture it seems we are not so different. The challenges they face with their youth here are exactly what we face with our youth. Our culture is as baffling and confusing to them as theirs is to us and yet they carry on each day with such resiliance and motivation it needs to be commended. Imagine coming from a very rural village to a major city bustling with trains, cars, traffic, traffic jams, accidents, sirens, complete and utter chaos is basically how you could describe the transition.  But it has its up side, our country is at peace, and unfortunately Sudan is not. Decades of war have taken its toll on these people and the only way to sustain their lives and culture was to leave their homeland and seek shelter in a country of peace. We are so lucky to have such resiliant visitors to our shores, let us hear of their stories, learn a bit about them and their cultures and you will find they are just sooo much like us. Family is important, community is important, love, friendship, fun, entertainment, dancing, singing, you would be utterly surprised how alike we are. Aside from skin colour, we are all similar and i really don’t know how people cannot see this.

Coming from Rural Sudan to Blacktown City of Australia must be a huge and amazing change of life and circumstances. Blacktown City is a vast city that has expanded massivly in the last 30 years. I should know, i was born here. As a local Blacktowner i have seen my town grown into a vast city, seen our vast array of bushland be cleared for Urban development, seen our infastructure fall behind due to the vast rise of population and seen the massive change in the community. The Southern Sudanese who have came here have done a remarkable job to adjust to the hustle and bustle of Australian life after years of living in war torn areas. We don’t realise being Australians how confusing our rail or bus system can be to a new Australian. How our tax system can boggle their minds and how even using our vast array of electrical knick knacks can seem like you need to take course to use it.

After my experience last night, being welcomed into the Bahr El Gahzar community i feel so completely honored and motivated. I hope that in January of 2011, A New Sudan will emerge through the referendum and my dear friends who would love to return to their homeland are able to do so as free and democratic citizens of a “New Sudan”.

FreeUganda (Apologies for the poor quality footage, my video camera is requiring a new charger cable)

So i know its been a real long time since i wrote a journal entry, since back in August i do believe. I was actually going to write one at the end of August but received a phone call that changed my life, we had lost one of our nephew’s in a car accident and another was seriously injured, the other 2 had minor injuries also. It was a day i will never forget and since then have taken some time to be with family and deal, learn and be there for others who need it.

Its with a sad heart i move forward in life to bring my mind out of the clouds and back down to earth….

I’ve started back at the HARDA mens english program and am learning so much from my students. One of which i found out today was “A lost boy“. It pained me to watch last weeks Foreign Correspondant report with them and hear them speak first hand of what life was like, it bought me to silent tears as i stood at the back of the room whilst 9 or so Southern Sudanese Men watched the report, all crowded over a small laptop, their resiliance and hope shone so bright right at that moment. One of my students commented “i have not seen my family in 30 years, and im only early 40’s”. How sad it made me knowing this grown man had not seen his family since a child, how much pain would this have caused. And that is not just one, but alot of them havnt seen part if not all of their family in years if not decades.

On speaking of the upcoming referendum in Sudan, they have high hopes for a new Southern Sudan in 2011, a country separate from the North. One in which their current Southern Sudanese Govt will be in control of. With the announcement of Peacekeeping troups to be placed in hotspots they are delighted that the world is watching, that people are hoping for peace in the region. They have welcomed the peacekeeping troups as they beleive the presence there will deter a new war from erupting, one at which they know all to well the concequences of.

Its with their strength and courage and determination i move my life forward to a new journey and path. This year Invisible Children Australia will be closed and free up my time to work with the Horn of Africa Refugee’s here locally in Blacktown and other local communities, i am also going to try and learn Dinka, a tribal Southern Sudanese language. I have so many projects going on in my mind and hope to see alot of them come to fruition both here in Aus and overseas in Africa.

Whilst on this journey in life im on, i’ve also been delving into the history of my family, in particular, my mothers family. I watched a documentary on Nazi occupied Holland in 1944 and it pained me to see what my Oma (grandmother in dutch) and Opa (grandfather in dutch) had to survive also. A great European country such as Holland taken by Germany in just a few hours, the hard times the people faced and how they lived. My mum also shared stories with me of what they went through and how life was for them at this time and it gave me a new strength inside, knowing my own grandmother had to survive under such hard times, hiding a deaf and mute mother and father in war times must not have been easy. With their determination for a better life, they were able to move to Australia and so began my life. It to me, was a blessing, to know that all that could have possibly taken away had my Oma & Opa not survived Nazi occupied Holland.

I’ve never really thought about it that way until now. A new strength inside to carry on in seeking peace for all human beings, others who are not as lucky as us to live in the land of such a beautiful and free country. We all have strength inside to fight for peace and for injustice, i invite you to join in the fight….

Freeuganda.

So its been a while since i have put a journal entry in as i have been quite busy recently.

A few family issues arose that i needed to take care of as well as continuing to run my Sudanese Mens English Courses through HARDA and also spending time with my children, who are ages 9, 4 & 3 so as you can imagine, they are quiet time consuming! lol My children are awesome kids and i hope they grow up with a moral respect for others and continue the fight for injustice.

In recent weeks i found out that one of the Invisible Children USA Team was taken away by an act of Terrorism. Nate from IC USA was in Kampala with 3 of our Northern Ugandan Students when a suicide bomber let of his bomb. Unfortunately, Nate did not survive the blast and our 3 students managed to escape with their lives, just to add more terror and scars to their already scarred lives. Such a sad thing to happen to those so innocently watching a soccer match. It just makes no sense. I send my condolences to all of those affected by the World Cup Bombings in Kampala, our prayers and thoughts are with you and your families.

It seems the world is falling apart right before my eyes, i feel helpless that i cannot do more to help others who are suffering, but as i know, i am only one person and i can only do so much, so i will continue to do as much as i can for others.

I must end this journal for now as i have some hungry little children asking me for morning tea so i must end this post early.

I thank all of you who read my posts and support my efforts to help those less fortunate. Thank you for coming on my journey with me.

Freeuganda

So it’s been a little while since i’ve done my last journal entry, but i’ve been so flat out lately with volunteering and then a few family issues that arose.

So whats been going on!?!

Well as you know i’ve been the program co-ordinator for the sudanese mens english classes here at the HARDA office in Homebush West. These are held on Monday and Tuesday from 10am to 12.30pm. I’ve met some wonderful Dinka and southern Sudanese men since i’ve started. All each with a tale to tell of back home life.

Sadly, i’ve seen how hard it is for them to change their lives from what they are used to, to what we have to offer here and the change for some has been overwhelming. The stories i’ve been told of how some of our refugees have been treated, victimised and such is disgraceful. We need to join together to create an understanding of eachother. For us to understand what they have suffered through and for them to understand how to live a new life in our country (which is completely different to theirs!)

In between all of this i’ve been dealing with issues closer to home, such as my dearly beloved dog falling ill and becoming a paraplegic. We sadly had to lay him to rest. RIP Spike 2005 – 2010.

It also looks as though i will have to delay my African trip for a few months as i have not reached the level of sponsorship that i require to be able to cover the costs of this volunteer trip. I do hope to make to africa in 2011. A goal i really want to achieve. This afternoon i will be sending out the final batch of my sponsorship letters.

I will also be heading to the Blacktown Sudanese Settlement centre to start co-ordinating the mens english groups there so that we can start next term with new english classes. If anyone from the Blacktown Area is interested in being a program co-ordinator each thursday for english classes it would be much appreciated! simply EMAIL ME!

So that is it for now i must be getting along and doing some other things but ill update some more news this afternoon when i return home.

Peace to all.
Freeuganda